Taking Time
I’m taking time - starting now - to get myself together. I’m making big changes, and I am going to be a much better person because of it. For the past few years I have been going through a haze of responsibilities without ever catching up to myself. I never took any time to reflect on the present. I assumed new responsibilities with a view to the future, but I had no awareness of where I was. I had blinders on, they were made out of my future responsibilities. What’s worse, I assumed new responsibilities because of my blinders.
Everything stops now.
“I’m sorry, but no” is going to become a big part of my new vocabulary.
But slowing down and eliminating excess from my life is just the preliminary step. In and of itself, saying no is not a valuable activity. It is a negative gesture. What is the new positive that will fill it’s place? The same amount of hours will exist in the day - how will I use them?
It’s a difficult to plan, because my gut tells me: “everything.”
But I can’t do everything, not with skill, not all at once. I am struggling to figure out just how I can fit everything I want to do into my life.
What I need is a plan. For now, I think I’ll just make music.
